a broken friendship

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares. - by Henri Nouwen
Am I a good friend? I would like to think so...
I may not be perfect but I try to be the bestfriend that anyone can ask for...I try to be there for my friends...protect them..share my laughters and tears with them...sometimes I find myself defending my friends and even fighting their battles for them... Does it make me a good friend? I hope it does...
But is it too much for me to expect the friends that I cherished all these years to at least protect me and the rest of the gals that make up our small but happy circle of friends?
There can be no friendship without confidence, and no confidence without integrity - Samuel Johnson
I am a person who does not trust a person that easily...i am wary...cynical at times...but once i have learned to trust you...you will find out that i am a warm person outside the "cold facade" that i show...But I am aso sensitive and vulnerable...I easily get hurt and once my trust and confidence in you has been violated...I find it hard to trust the same person again...
Just recently,I had let go of a friend...not because we had a fight...but because I want him to be happy with his new found love...I hope that the girl that he had chosen would make him happy...and that it will be worth of the friendship that he had let this person to destroy and trample with...
I would still be here for him though...but it wont be like before...I know the other female member of our circle of friends had already spoken with him and had forgiven him...but there still is a scar...and as for me...I am not ready to forget yet...It will take time...how long will it take? I still dont know...